SO EXCITED

So Chuck the father is coming for the birth and i'm really excited about this. I didn't think i would be but i feel as though it will be good for him. I can't wait to experience childbirth its a coming into womanhood(...lol like periods weren't enough). My new found respect for mothers around the world has been growing with each passing week. Realizing that this is the common mold that holds us together as women.  Its like I'm joining an exclusive group and birthing is the only way to join. I feel a pain when I think of women who can't conceive, almost as though mother nature robbed them of something special. I can't even pretend to understand the pain they must feel.

I didn't think I could be this excited to meet a stranger... except his not really a stranger since I've been carrying him around for the last 9 months. Don't know how its going to be when his born probably miss him kicking me and hiccuping.  To think that this just happened... everything happens for a reason and I thank God for trusting me at such a young age with something so precious. Even though it wasn't expected and def not in my plan I wouldn't change anything about it. I've learned how to trust myself and care for someone else more than my life, which is still a mystery to me. I can understand my mums love for me better now....when they say that unconditional love its no joke. My mum is the best there is (thats probably what every woman says after they have a child) but she really is a GREAT person who has accomplished so much with so little. In the future if i can give her half the world she has given me this last twenty something years I would be happy.

Done with my rants for tonight....I'll try and upload some pictures of my pregnancy  and baby stuff soon