Pregnancy vs. Baby

So on those sleepless night that happen quite often nowadays  wonder which was better being pregnant and uncomfortable or comfortable but no sleep. Oh I remember those nights I would wake up with pain and with the baby would just pop out. The back pain the round ligament pain...the tossing and turning....the list goes on and on. But I got sleep.

Now there never seems to be enough hours in the day to sleep and get everything done. Right when I lay down he is up and when he is down I'm up. My to do list never seems to end only grow. between school and housework my day is packed. At this hour of the night when no one needs to be awake....even the monsters under the bed are asleep pregnancy pain seems like a breeze.

5 weeks Mummy

I can't believe it has already been 5 weeks since Baby Eli came into this world. I feel like it was just yesterday....well most of the time....those long nights make it feel like it was ages ago. He has grown so much and has started outgrowing his newborn cloths and the smaller 0-3 months. guess it will be shopping time again :). FYI I love having a boy....most of my cousins are girls so I have always done the whole girly thing. Having a boy is like a whole new fun for me. I want everything I see and wanna play dress up with him ( poor boy lol I find every and any reason to change his cloths at least once a day). Yes my laundry pile is ridic.

I love him every part of him even the poopy diapers. I hated changing poopy diapers always found a way to get away without changing them. When I saw that face it was time to hand the baby to someone else. But somehow crazy thing called motherhood has me looking forward to changing those poopy diapers. YES I can't wait to change them its like a this feeling of accomplishment. He is eating right and having a bowl movement so I'm doing it right.

Eli has changed so much its exciting I wait and see if I can point out who he looks like everyday. Me my Mum his dad his grandpa oh the list is endless. 

Our favorite activity Staring

38 weeks Blessing

It seems like it was just yesterday I was panicking about what to do and how to tell my mum. Going through the vomiting and sleepless nights. After all that nothing could have prepared me for our first meeting. Elijah my little blessing came on 7-7-11 and brightened my world. The cutest baby ever ( I know all mums say this but he really is a cutie). I really know what they mean when they say unconditional love like you have never felt before. I can't wait to live the rest of my life loving this little boy.

 I don't think we would have made it this far without the support of my mother. I hope I can be half the mother she was to me. God has truly blessed with two loves in this lifetime.

New Beginnings

After being woken up with an irritating woman from my car insurance on the other end at 8:30 am my day went down hill fast. By mid-day I found my self crawling into bed tears creeping up and no matter how many breaths I took none of them retracted the tears. Then a few more calls with not so great news and this time determination. I guess all the pregnancy hormones got released with the first round. I realized that my life plan was no longer in play and the more I tried to hold on to my past hopes and dreams the more pain I was causing myself. Geez and here I was hopping for some help keeping the dream alive.

So life changes what I thought I was going to be doing on my 23rd birthday is def not happening. This will officially be my last birthday as a young lady. WOWZER I feel the need to rewind and repeat .....my last birthday as a young lady....So what will I be A YOUNG MOTHER yep yep thats right. So outside of hoping Eli stays in the oven until the next day (or the day b4 my birthday i'm still kinda selfish with my birthday) my birthday wish list includes
1. a sewing machine (so i can learn to sew cloths for Eli and Me)
2. a babymoon to the beach
3. alot of ice cream and chocolate
 Not alot right exactly my point.

I digress back to the subject I started a new facebook account cuz i don't really like having 1000+ ppl who i knew in high school middle school and college but don't really talk 2 all in my business plus I want something more personal. And hey why not.  Started a new 5yr plan cuz this last one is def not working out for obvious reasons. So now i gotta put on my big girl pants and roll with the punches instead of being pulled along.

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!!!!

Full Term 2morrow 37 weeks

I'm so giddy I will be full term tomorrow AWSOME.... i can't believe the journey I have been through. The human body is indeed a beautiful thing. I keep staring at my stomach like so your really in there and like growing. I mean first i can't imagine how he manages to fit and move and live and feed seriously amazing....if i didn't believe in God this alone would do the deed. Second i don't understand how my body will shrink back in just a couple of weeks what took months to grow. This is neither here nor there i guess one of the great mysteries science can slightly address but not create.

Tomorrow I have my Lamaze class so thats exciting right...!!!!! will take pics hopefully can upload everything tomorrow so many pictures so little time. I keep procrastinating on doing this and the pictures are piling up on me.

I am getting crazy excited about meeting my son.....(aww man this is jus crazy I am a mum i really can't even say it out loud without looking around) I'm feeling like is this even possible THIS is me we are talking about but everything happens for a reason and this must be my season for a blessing/ miracle 

SO EXCITED

So Chuck the father is coming for the birth and i'm really excited about this. I didn't think i would be but i feel as though it will be good for him. I can't wait to experience childbirth its a coming into womanhood(...lol like periods weren't enough). My new found respect for mothers around the world has been growing with each passing week. Realizing that this is the common mold that holds us together as women.  Its like I'm joining an exclusive group and birthing is the only way to join. I feel a pain when I think of women who can't conceive, almost as though mother nature robbed them of something special. I can't even pretend to understand the pain they must feel.

I didn't think I could be this excited to meet a stranger... except his not really a stranger since I've been carrying him around for the last 9 months. Don't know how its going to be when his born probably miss him kicking me and hiccuping.  To think that this just happened... everything happens for a reason and I thank God for trusting me at such a young age with something so precious. Even though it wasn't expected and def not in my plan I wouldn't change anything about it. I've learned how to trust myself and care for someone else more than my life, which is still a mystery to me. I can understand my mums love for me better now....when they say that unconditional love its no joke. My mum is the best there is (thats probably what every woman says after they have a child) but she really is a GREAT person who has accomplished so much with so little. In the future if i can give her half the world she has given me this last twenty something years I would be happy.

Done with my rants for tonight....I'll try and upload some pictures of my pregnancy  and baby stuff soon

Starting a New Journey

Well i never thought I would be a single mum but in about a month I will welcome my little Monkey into the world. Why monkey.... because while in the oven his favorite activity was rolling around and stretching. He probably thought there was more room hidden somewhere lol....nope that all the room there was for the stay in mummy's belly hotel. It has been an interesting 9 months and I can't wait to meet him. I would like to thank my mum and my family for being with me and supporting me throughout this journey.